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I am lost

floating in this thick haze

standing in insecurity

my mind is unsure of what I am feeling

and my heart is unsure of what I know

I am lost in the promise of the future

why is everything so unclear?

I reach out in search of everything

my heart is crying out for its safe place

a place where there is no painful, lost, or lonely longing

my mind cries out for its fulfillment

where there is no worry or uncertain happenings

I fear what is unpredictable

what I don't understand

I know something is missing

I feel something is not quite where it should be

why can't I just go to my safe place?

why must I stay trapped in my fear?

in my insecurity, and my longing?

what is it that I am seeking?

how am I supposed to find it?

who will bring the sun to shine through this dark fog?

where is it that I really belong?

what should I be doing?

why am I really here?

will I ever find this place of pure satisfaction?

why is it this hard?

what can I do - floating lost in this uncertainty?

why do all these questions remain unanswered?
Heh, an odd example of what goes through my head when I can't sleep...

But look at this, I totally found a verse that answered this directly:

We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly as he knows us.

(Does that not sound amazing)??

But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.

1 corinthians 13:12-13

Wait.. and God will show you.


1. the act of consummating; completion.

2. the state of being consummated; perfection; fulfillment.
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we-were-left-behind Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2012  Student Writer
Beautiful poem, the line "I am lost in the promise of the future" is strikingly poignant and relatable. Great work :)
ajbluesox Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Haha wow thanks.
BlazeBracard Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hmm I can relate to this a lot! Sounds like stuff I was thinking last night. You put it nicely into words
ajbluesox Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Yep, that's what I was thinking last night. I decided to write it down, which I usually don't do.
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